9 Weeks - Graduation!!

Today I officially hit 9 weeks!! Which is a very exciting point because at this point... My little embryo has graduated to a fetus! I am so excited to have made it this far. I've felt terrible.. which has actually been fabulous I love that I look & feel pregnant. I was talking to Lil yesterday & we realized how weird it was when we were pregnant with Hannah & Maliah we.. never worried we just had fun with it, we never freaked out over tiny little things or thought we were going to have a miscarriage at any moment.. we just knew we were having our baby. I think part of that stems from the fact that our children having siblings; life long loved ones, someone to lean on & things like that is SO important to us.

 I honestly felt for awhile like I was really letting Maliah down by not giving her what she has wanted for so long. Today I felt kind of bad, she was playing with a 2 year old and I thought to myself, I really wish my children were closer in age but, I'm really thankful for this chance to give her someone. I just felt like she was so happy running around with this little boy playing and just having fun, she won't be able to do that with her little brother or sister for almost 2 years but I know, she will be a patient person and she will be happy with a little one to be around. I have been trying to expose her to as many small children (preferably younger than her own age) to prepare her for this new, life long adventure. Maliah is such a nurturing person already and so patient I can't wait until she meets her new best friend.

Sometimes I think about how Maliah already has a sister and I get so upset, I wish that people weren't so stubborn I wish things worked easier so that my daughter, doesn't have to miss out on a relationship that she needs to have in her life. I've tried so hard to make that relationship possible so many times and it just never works. It shouldn't be hard for them to be sisters.